3 days after watching harry potter (tuesday), i started to realize that i don't really have Real friends in school... before you start posting comments that say, "what? am i not your friend?" and stuff like that, i want you to answer a few questions truthfully...
1) if i told on you for doing something wrong, would you be mad with me?
2) if i were to be handicapped physically and mentally, would you still appreciate me and treat me as a friend?
3) if i had to ask you to give me 50 000 dollars in 3 hours would you do it?
4) if i needed to call you at 3 in the morning to talk to you, would you be willing to?
The answer you would give to many of the questions would be no. And hence i rest my case. If you were or are a real friend, you would probably answer yes to most of them. I'm not saying i don't have friends, i have friends, but most of them are outside of this school (yf is the most).
To the people reading this post, i only have friends in school like Joshua Ng and Daryl. Maybe it's the school, so, maybe i'll find friends in the near future. I realize that i don't have such a close relationship to my "friends" and they are all, as my friend once said, 'fair-weather' friends.
That's my life, and i'm sure after many of you read this post, you'll probably realize this fact too. this isn't the first time i experienced this, but this time it made an impact, one that will probably guide me through the rest of my life as i make new friends. Every time i looked to the sky when i was in a state of depression, i had a feeling, one that felt i was lost, empty, but at the same time, it was inspiring, the feeling was extraordinary.
But today, i know i have friends. Those who stand by me are not in school, but in the comfort of my church. The youths of Zion BP church know when i am down. They are not just friends alone, but spiritual friends whom i know will always be there for me.
Hence, i find honour in thanking the youths of Zion. They notice when i'm not around, and they want me to be there to strengthen my walk with Christ and also have fellowship with them. i want to tell them that they are the best, and that even though i may not be going to Zion anymore, and no one can replace you guys.=)
i wrote something when i was depressed with my friends, and i would like to share it with you all who read this
Friends
For in-between the battle of good and evil, there is suffering and sacrifices,death. But it is thus that one side shall triumph over the other. If good triumphs, everything will be peaceful, but if evil stands, there is more chaos and devastation. Those who do not make a stand shall be as good as one of the bad.
Those who choose friendship over justice shall be one of the bad, usually. time is of the essence in this tangled war. but justice shall show under the rags of this battle. however, forgiveness is essential. everyone deserves another chance regardless of the degree of their misdeeds.
Forgive and forget. either side has to do so. as a person of justice, he must forgive the other party who has infringed the law. as a wrongdoer, he should forgive the one who has blamed him. both parties are at fault if justice does it with a wrong motive. Be it hatred or fear, to revenge or avenge, one who sides justice should have none of these feelings when they are to judge. one who does not understand this rule is not a man of justice. he is but a partial man seeking revenge. he is another one who does wrong. again.
A friend who does not understand what you have done and chooses to turn against your correct intentions is not a friend.
i did that to a friend before, but never admitted it. it is most regretful now that i have not seen him, and may never see him again.
to stress, people who do not understand your intentions and go against you are not your friends, on account that your intentions are correct and impartial. if you love your friends, do what you know you must not what you should. if you love your friends, you understand what he or she does for you.
It took me this long to figure out such a searing truth, but if i had not found out later in my life, it would be a dangerous road ahead.
Treasure your friends, before they fade as a memory, to leave nothing but horrible thoughts behind.
Joel.
